A little bit lost ....

I feel strange .... I have passed through this feelings before some times now ... I gave my best during the last 10 months, I have everything in my life to be happy and I truly am but I don't have energy to enjoy it ...

I am beginning to feel melancholic for the experiences I have passed through on my dear island ... remember the hard and soft moments, the lovely places, the people ... and in the same time I feel something big is waiting for me and I want to gather all the energy and motivation in order to start it with the right foot!

So I am little bit lost ... always when I am tired and exhausted I loose my equilibrium and my clear vision about tomorrow and the future .... but I will come back ... I have to, the last 5 wonderful weeks in Dominican Republic are waiting for me :)

For everything there is a season :)

And a time for every matter under heaven:
A time to be born, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to throw away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to seek, and a time to lose;
A time to keep, and a time to throw away;
A time to tear, and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate,
A time for war, and a time for peace.

Definitely these last months have been for me the months for healing, laughing, dancing, gathering stones together, love and live in peace :) Is incredible the feeling I have right now of fulfillment, happiness and achievement!

I am in the Costa Rican Airport (making a connection to Santo Domingo) coming from IGN XPRO (ILC 2009) in Guatemala ... and I have the feeling I am at the top of the world ... is so strange because I actually don't remember a time in my life when I was so incredibly happy; satisfied with the version of Malina I got to :D; and grateful and proud with the people I have by my side and I am enjoying each experience with :)

I was writing in my last post about the IPM experience and what I was feeling back then ... all my emotions and special moments ... and now after one national conference and another international one I can say ... somebody there up really loves me and people around me!!! And I was thinking that definitely in our life we have extraordinary moments when our mind, heart, senses are simply electrified and they can not express the level of emotions they are gathering ... that the things you do each day, places you visit and the people you have close to your heart have that awesome power of bringing you endless sparks in your eyes ... butterflies armies in your stomach and a constant smile on your face :)

I have the great feeling somebody is offering me the best AWARD of my life for something big I did ... that somebody is remembering all those incredibly hard moments, energy and passion invested, moments of feeling that you give your best but that is not enough :) And what is so clear for me RIGHT now is that we all need to pass though these moments in order to be not better but GREATER at a personal and professional level and to enjoy 10 times more these moments of truly happiness!!!

ILC in Guatemala was an incredible fulfilling experience for me especially because is my second time facilitating this conference in a region I simply love and got so much connected with ... working with a true team of professionals ... people that smile each moment from all their heart and that simply don't have in their vocabulary the words problem, can't do, frustration ... humble, passionate people that can transmit that so easily to the delegates ... a synergy that was build in some hours and resulted in the best conference I had ever facilitated!!! Everything went so flawless that we just woke up yesterday at the end of the almost 2 weeks of working together ... that we fully achieved our dreams for this conference ... incredibly motivated, constructive and thankful delegates (ever in my life I didn't feel so much appreciated by people around me) ... new hopes build for the region and a lot of energy and passion shared between faci, delegates, OC, chair that I am sure will converge in achieving the results we planned :)

I am living definitely the best moments of my life ... loving, achieving my dreams, being what I so much wanted from me as a person ... and living this I can not stop thinking about the future ... about the next one month and 9 days I still have in Dominican Republic ... about my future 2 years in AIESEC! What I know for sure is that hard moments will come, challenging ones that will have a big impact upon me at a both personal and professional level ... but I did promised to myself during this conference that I will not leave anything or anyone in this world change me ... that I will remain the same humble, simple, passionate person there to help people :) and I will fight from all my heart for that to happen!!!

Once more thank you conference team of ILC 2009!!!
Love you for what you are teaching me each day :*

Stardust ... magic ...

Sometimes our feelings can not be translated in words ... even if we try is simply impossible to express the magic :)

I am happy, I am truly happy ... don't actually know when I was that happy ... fulfilled and proud of my team, my family, my friends, me ... the sense of achieving in some days the dreams you had since 5 years ago, dreams for which you worked like crazy in the last months ... having by your side people that mean so much to you ... makes the days that just passed the happiest days of my life!!!

I still can not believe how life has this magic of settling the things in the right way ... how I entered in AIESEC, become so much involved, applying position after position, being elected or not, coming to Dominican Republic and then being elected in AIESEC International ... after 5 years and a half ... achieving my dream and well kept desire of being there up and share all that passion with other great people around me :) I still can not believe all the experiences I passed through, the people I met, the great places I saw ... how many times I was saying to myself I have to stop and mind my own business, how many times I came back saying I am strong enough to face anything that will stay in my way, how many times I cried of happiness and sadness, how many nights I spent having fun or being worried, how many challenges made me stronger and stronger ...

I still can not believe sometimes how I can be so fortunate in having so many incredible people by my side ... best friends, friends, people I worked with ... definitely AIESEC is mostly about people ... people that beginning with my first steps in AIESEC demonstrated me that everything is possible ... without Dani I would have never remained in AIESEC; without Gioni I would have never enjoyed working on the finance area in AIESEC; without Adisor I would have never had that determination to do things that challenge me and make me tremble; without Stefan I would have never learn how to enjoy AIESEC and become a professional in everything I do; without my dear Ciuci, Miha, Lucki I would have never known what true friendship means; without Ilinca, Vlad, Dora, Adela, Dey I would have never passed though the biggest down period of my life; without Mo I would have never known that the closeness between people is not a matter of time but a matter of trust and chemistry; without Pato and Raga that regardless of differences in culture or personalities what really matters is the things you can learn from each other and things you can change in yourself; without Hugo and Lucas I would have never woken up in the morning with a smile on my face knowing that ... we don't have any money to live with, the country is not accepting us as foreigners, we are working like crazy but the results don't appear ... having their constant support and trust :)

And is an incredible feeling ... of having these and many many other people by your side that trust you and the experiences you are passing through ... that trust you at a professional or personal level ... from your own town and country or from all over the network ... people that know you for a lifetime or just met you!

Is a great feeling of passing though one of the hardest 80 minutes of your life and be selected Vice President Finance in AIESEC International for the next two years ... lovely feeling of having a great team and build incredible high dreams :)

I am happy and proud of AIESEC in Dominican Republic and us as a team ... paying the debt to AI after 3 years, fulfilling the membership criteria, having both MCPs present in IPM, having an important increase in country results, having 50 Alumni fully involved ... demonstrate us that our effort was worth it ... that dreams do come true :)

Being home for 18 hours and seeing my lovely family, friends ... my town ... the AIESEC office I grew in gave me so much energy :)

My heart is truly happy and fulfilled for finding a person that is making my days even greater that they were before ... that challenges me ... that is there for me with heart and soul ... that is making me enjoy every second :)

Yes this month was an incredible one for me!!!
Truly happy :)



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