Dreams ... feelings ...

Life is made out of images ... feelings ... people .... dreams and believes ... simple things ...

But why is it so hard to express it in words, in phrases ... maybe because ...

... we are afraid of not expressing the exact feeling that we have, of not being able to express the passion, the energy, the vibe ....
... we are afraid that once you share your dream, people will spoil the magic of it, will be too pragmatic to accept it ...
... we are afraid the dream will not come true ...
... we are afraid of its power, of how this feelings will make us act ...

The key ... is to be honest with yourself and others ... to be powerful enough ... to stay in front of people and SAY IT out loud and then take the responsibility ... of your feelings and dreams ... to prepare and fight for it ...

The moment I joined this organization my life changed ... the passion for what I was doing grew ... the people I met filled me with emotions and energy ... the experiences grew in intensity ... but I didn't want to stop ... everything that I was living was incredible ... hard, fulfilling, challenging, disappointing, happy ... passing from one state of mind to the other ... from one experience to the other and today I say stop ....

Why am I still doing this after 5 years now ... why am I working that much .. why I don't want to leave all behind and take life in my own hands and go in the real world .... hard questions ... but easy answers ... because I still love it, because I still feel the vibe and the energy to be there, to fight for a cause, for people, for me ... because i feel in this organization as in my own home and I don't want to leave, at least not now ... I feel free and in the same time challenged at each step I take ... I feel I can make a difference and fight for that unique things I want to bring ....

But am I powerful enough to express all this ... well I just did :) ... am I powerful enough to say my dream out loud ... well I am ..

... My dream for the next year is to guide this organization ... to work together with a great team in order to fulfill a dream, in order to help others grow ... in order make a difference ... in order to help us be better ....

.... yes ...

... my dream ....

... is to be elected ....

MCP of AIESEC in Romania

... and I will make this dream of mine come true ... for me, for one special organization!

I am smiling from all my heart and I'm ready for new adventures in my life ... AIESEC Iasi LTS, the conference of my heart NPS 2007, MCC 2008 ... and the new experiences that will come after this turnpoint ...

Stories in our lives ....

Five months later another post ...


Reading my old post I got to the conclusion I am constant in writing on the blog, from 5 to 5 months ...

After such a long period of time I felt of writing on my blog due to all the things that happened in my life .... this post being dedicated to a beautiful story ... to one year and 8 months ....

I had in mind to write this post since 26th of October ... but then I simply couldn't express all the things I felt ... a sense of shock retained me of expressing my feelings ... but today I am strong enough to say from the bottom of my hear ...

A beautiful story ended! Thank you for this adventure! Life goes on!

Let's be happy!

Last year ... March 11th ... one kiss started this story ... happy smiles, my senses going wild, feelings I tough I never will have, doughs because of the situation, quite ....

Great months passed, happy ones ... working together for a great purpose, being there for each other, being happy together with friends, holidays, meeting new people, school, cooking, films, aniversaries, presents but apart all this .... learning what freedom means, being able to say for the first time in my life, I LOVE YOU, being more open, seeing more perspectives, breaking paradigms, smiling from all my heart ... things that I never imagined that only one person can guide you through ...

December ... challenge ... the step when each of us began to change ... began to be more strong, more focused on other purposes, each of us building a different path ... the first time in so many months from the beginning when our purpose, our energy began to go in a different direction from each other ... but we were still there for each other ....

April ... and the next months proved that even if we were not there to see all above mentioned ... the experiences, being apart from each other, new challenges ... break the strong connection that was build until that point .... something was not like before because we were not like before ... our life, dreams, passions, belives changed and us together with them ...

October ... a sad reality stroke the feelings I had ... and the story ended ... maybe to soon, maybe to late ... we will never know ...

But my post is not about sadness, about negative feelings or trust that was broken ... but is about some feelings that will never be vanished ... about images in my head and heart ... about great things I learned ... about the new ME that is different due to this 1 year and 8 months ... about happiness ...

I have this big THANK YOU for this great adventure that we lived ... and a big desire for our friendship never to dissapear ....


This is something from all my heart ... for what is was to be the uniquest experience of my life ...

"Vreau sa iti multumesc pentru fiecare mangaiere, pentru fiecare privire si pentru fiecare sarut si gand .... Esti o persoana cu adevarat speciala si ti-ai gasit un loc in inima mea ... Cred in tot ceea ce ti-am spus si cred in "noi" sincer sper ca sa ai si tu incredere in fericirea care am putea sa o gasim impreuna ...
Cu mult drag si un sarut dulce" V.


"E greu ... e greu sa astern pe hartie ceea ce simt acum, infara faptului ca imi bate inima enorm de tare cand ma uit la tine ... gandindu-ma la momentele deosebite pe care le-am trait si la ceea ce ne asteapta ... Chiar nu pot sa exprim in cuvinte ceea ce simt acum si pot sa spun doar ce am castigat de cand te-am cunoscut ... curaj, pasiune si fericire ...
Te sarut din suflet" M.

It is better to have loved and lost than never to have at all!

What comes around goes around ...

This week simply was not the best of my life ... a lot of study and 100 % concentration for the last exam of my university ... a person almost agressed me on the street in the night of the party, a guy with too much "initiative" in the bus 25 and my soul ... hurting, too much maybe ...

And my question after all this week of wondering and stressing ... would be ... When do you know that is over? How to know that is time to go, and let the scene to another person?

I am definately facing a hard period with all this exam, MC, my life and the future ....
I know that things will be ok and that in time all will be for the best ... but what can I do with this pain? Hw do I face it?

Sorry for this sad post ...

Why?

It is so interesting ....

It took me one year to create my personal blog and almost half of year to write my second post ... And I wonder why is that ... is it because I didn't have time, is it because I didn't consider it important ... and none of that is true ...

But now I think I got it ... it's about the moment I feel the need to speach to somebody, to write a letter to somebody about me and about the happenings around me :) If I have people around me and I can tell them about all this I don't need to write in my blog, but otherwise in an empty office, a computer in front of me with a lot of work that has to be done and the pouring rain outside I feel is the moment to write my second post ...

The last three days have been the most dinamic of my last months, and I feel a little bit tired with all this going through my head: school and exams, family very far, my MC life and Bucharest, friends I left home but in the same time I feel I'm doing what I like, what I feel will help me on a long term, new friends I'm begining to make here. I'm getting used with my new life and I want to take the most of it!!! :D

Still ... what do you do with your feelings of regret, of not having the people that you care the most near you in the moments that you need them, with the feelings that you would like to help more your friends with the problems they have but you are far far away ... A solution is to let this remain in your head and heart and the other solution is to express them , write them somewhere and then try to fix them (talk with these persons, and help them with a good word, with a smile send by sms).

This is also I reason for wich I hardly wait to come in Bucharest after the exams, start my real job here (real job, because I want to stay here and work full time for the dreams I expressed in MCC because at this point I feel I'm just achieving half of the things I wanted) and organize my personal place.

I want to put my life in order and to see with what I going on the road ...

I said my personal place because I dream of having a place in the office where to have the pictures of all the people I miss and would love to see from time to time, a place to put Dora's little dog and my Fluffy :)), a place where I can look and smile ... and this I will happen in July when I'm moving more permanently than ever in Bucharest :)

A lot of times I think I'm not good at expressing MY DREAMS, MY WISHES out loud for everybody to hear them and it just crossed my mind I can do this here :D

So my wish for today is to BE HAPPY!!!

And I assure you I will, regardless of any decision I have to take!

That was all!!

Kisses and ...

... ENJOY BEING HAPPY!!!